Just my thinking. nbd.

There will always be thoes songs that will remind me of the memories. The good times that I had with someone who means alot to me. Every time I hear those songs... A shiver courses through my body. A memory runs thorugh my mind. And I am left thinking about what is now the past.
This happens to me, on a daily basis.

I guess Im sentamental. I guess I wish things were different then they are now. but what I know is that there is nothing that I can do to go back. To change things. To fix things.

So I guess that leaves me with my hopes. my dreams. my wishes. and my knowledge.
The knowledge that this is now. The knowledge that this is where I am, and there is nothing I can do to erase the past. All I can do is shape my future.
And remember the memories that come back to me, with every song that is played.

Resolution time. Two weeks late, but whatever.

I have just decided right now, about two minutes ago, that I am going to try my best to stick to one new years resolution:
To be nicer to the ones who I havent been that... kind to in the past year. Its a new year, and has been for two weeks. Its time to make changes in my life, and this is where I feel that I need to start. Reg, you probably know what Im talking about... and I am going to try to be nicer.

...Just thought I'd let you all know.

My mind: with 100% chance of hazyness

Just for a minute, sixty seconds, I wish that there was nothing clouding my thoughts; altering my perception of what I want and need. I try to think about what I want from life, and how I want to get there... But it never ends with concrete thoughts. I dont know where I was going with this, but Ive been sitting here, trying to think.... and theres just so much going on in my head right now, so many ideas and memories and people and places and circumstances. I cant think straight, and its really bothering me.