Ok. the happiness is fading. I spend my afternoon napping off a hangover and just thinking... and the thinking didnt really get me anywhere. Last night, well from what i can remember, made me think about how much that I really wish that I could go to school this year. Theres reasons that im not, like my lack of money and im not completely sure what i want to take. But im very very terrified that when next year rolls around that I wont go back; that I wont have enough motovation... and its eating at me.
Anyway. This summer has been the best that ive experianced. Yeah, ive been working 40+ hours a week, but ive also had so much fun. And as this month nears its end, I keep thinking more and more about how much im going to miss everyone. The majority of my closest friends are moving. Two of my three best friends are going to be in other citys, and I feel like the third wont be around much. I honestly dont know what im going to do without most of my friends around. this last year has been the greatest ever, ive made some amazing friends, and made friendships better. Theres been so much fun, and im so scared that Im going to lose touch with these people.. and Im going to do everything I can to keep that from happening.
its amazing how much better that typing this out made me feel.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
People talking shit; but they can kiss the back of my hand
Happiness is something that Im feeling a great deal of lately. Im spending alot of time with my friends having lots of fun and doing new things and living my life to the fullest. Ive made a new best friend, and Im going to be really said when he moves in a few weeks, but Im sure that well have a blast until then and that there will be good times to come. ...But theres also been alot of pointless high school drama lately, and im not letting any of it bother me. Its not worth it, so Im letting it drop. Im done with high school, so therefore I am also done with the type of drama. Ive washed my hands of this; Done. But anyway...
Im more active because of the 200 diet experement... although 200 is a very big number. haha, I think that were going to cut it down a bit and work up to 200. I do feel alot better after going for a nice jog (when i dont a horrible leg cramp lol) and I think that Im going to go to the gym either tomorrow or tuesday after work, depending how tired I am and how much this STUPID SUNBURN hurts... ha.$
Another reason for my happiness lately is that Karissa and I are going out, and Im realy excited! I really like her, and cant wait to get to know her better than I already do. :)
My brain is all over the place today, so I think that this is it for now. Maybe when I feel better later Ill write some more.
Until later.
Im more active because of the 200 diet experement... although 200 is a very big number. haha, I think that were going to cut it down a bit and work up to 200. I do feel alot better after going for a nice jog (when i dont a horrible leg cramp lol) and I think that Im going to go to the gym either tomorrow or tuesday after work, depending how tired I am and how much this STUPID SUNBURN hurts... ha.$
Another reason for my happiness lately is that Karissa and I are going out, and Im realy excited! I really like her, and cant wait to get to know her better than I already do. :)
My brain is all over the place today, so I think that this is it for now. Maybe when I feel better later Ill write some more.
Until later.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
I got all I need, and thats all right by me.
It seems like its been forever since Ive posted last. Ive been on the go so much lately that I really havent had any time to... But I figured that I would tonight before I go to sleep. So, here goes.
Ive been doing alot of thinking lately, and not really about anything in perticular... Just thinking. and Heres what ive come up with:
-My friends are the best I could ask for, and Im glad that I have them... and some of my closest friends are leaving next month which is going to be a little painful.
-I dont need a relationship to be happy, Im fine on my own right now. I have the rest of my life to deal with that.
-Im focusing more on the present than the future, and its working alot better for me.
-Im not letting things bother me like I used to before. I still care, but Im just not sweating the insegnificant problems.
-I want to travel. I always knew this... But Im realizing just how much I long to go back to Rome, Cuba, NYC, Athens and someday go to France, England...
-I really, need to get into shape. I know that Im not obese, but Im not happy with my body. I need to get a gym membership or something.
And Im pretty sure that theres more, but I cant really think of anything else off the top of my head. Even though that everything in my life isnt perfect, Im completely happy. work is great, I couldnt ask for better friends, all of whom I love, and I want to do and try new things as much as I can. I want to experiance life, live it to the fullest. this summer has been the best ever so far, and it can only get better.
I hope that everyone can take a look around, forget the bad things, think about now, and have some fun. This is our life, our summer... make the best of it :)
Ive been doing alot of thinking lately, and not really about anything in perticular... Just thinking. and Heres what ive come up with:
-My friends are the best I could ask for, and Im glad that I have them... and some of my closest friends are leaving next month which is going to be a little painful.
-I dont need a relationship to be happy, Im fine on my own right now. I have the rest of my life to deal with that.
-Im focusing more on the present than the future, and its working alot better for me.
-Im not letting things bother me like I used to before. I still care, but Im just not sweating the insegnificant problems.
-I want to travel. I always knew this... But Im realizing just how much I long to go back to Rome, Cuba, NYC, Athens and someday go to France, England...
-I really, need to get into shape. I know that Im not obese, but Im not happy with my body. I need to get a gym membership or something.
And Im pretty sure that theres more, but I cant really think of anything else off the top of my head. Even though that everything in my life isnt perfect, Im completely happy. work is great, I couldnt ask for better friends, all of whom I love, and I want to do and try new things as much as I can. I want to experiance life, live it to the fullest. this summer has been the best ever so far, and it can only get better.
I hope that everyone can take a look around, forget the bad things, think about now, and have some fun. This is our life, our summer... make the best of it :)
