Watch out for crazy dresses, they are bad news.

Today has been one of the greatest days of my summer. I had a great sleep last night, and woke up feeling rested and happy. I relaxed and listened to music most of the morning, made a quesadilla for lunch, and just chilled for the afternoon. I was brought home some cherry coke, and had the best pizza in the world for supper.

Then I went out with Laura and Reg, 2 of my closest friends, to just hang out and talk. We caught up after not really seeing much of eachother since graduation, talked about all kinds of stuff. Had some laughs, some fun, a good walk, and some nice scenery at Rockwood park. it realy is beaytiful there while theres not so many people around. For anyone that wants a nice evening walk, I recomend it :)

Afterwords we went to Tim Hortons, talked some more, then decided it was time to head out to Baines Corner to bring Reg home. We took a longer way, and before we got to his house he pulled over and stopped the car. We got out, and looked up.

There were a few things that i realized today, and one of them was that the most beautiful sight in my eyes is a dark night sky that is full of stars. Theres just something about seeing thousands of tiny lights that are so far away that just seems to trigger philosophical thoughs. Thats the main reason that I hate living in the city, its a rare chance to ever see something like that around here.

Anyway, we decided to be philosophical, and Reg asked: "If there was one thing you could change about the world, what would it be?". I had to think for a second, but the first thing that came to my mind was the cruelty of man. I dont know why exactly, but I feel that this would make a huge difference... Everything would just be so much better.

Anyway, that triggered more thinking, and then I thought about how much i have changed lately. im more tolerent, I dont let things get to me, I dont hold things in, and Im putting my priorities in order. This is in turn causing me to be a much happier person... And Im really liking this. Im really seeing that my friends and family are the greatest gift to me, and Im going to try harder to not take them for granted; not for a single second.
Anyway, thus ends my blog for tonight, Im hoping to have more days like today, cause it was just great.

Pay, to the order of Bastarache, Corey.

Happy, yet frustrated. How is it that I can be so happy with things, and at the same time Im frustrated to no end... Ah, I just wish that I could clear this up in my mind; But every time that I think I understand, and everything seems to be great, my damned brain has to make it worse than before. This doesnt only apply to one thing, but several. Oh well, my crazy mind and I will just have to work at this, get through it.

I have lots of things that I know I should get out of my head... But I just feel like Im unsure of my thoughs. If that makes sence. Soo, until I untangle my mind, thats all for today. Something good might come out of this weeekend, who knows. I hope so though :)

Ps, my pay stub is sitting in front of me, thats where the title came from... if you might have been wondering.

I'm just trying to keep this together; Cause I could do worse and you could do better♪

Today... Im in a rather weird mood. I dont even know what to call it; Its sort of like every second it switches between stress, happyness, lonelyness, boredom, tired, and frustration. Its... different. Besides working this morning, I really havent done anything besides lay in bed and sleep a little. I think thats why Im in a weird mood, because Im back to having nothing better to focus on but thoughts and memories, and that just leads nowhere good for me. This whole last four or five days have just been different. Ive gone from a very low to high, and now Im just mostly content... mostly.

Thursday and Friday were great; There really isn't much better than hanging out with 2 of your best friends, singing along to music as you fly down some back roads, eating steak and potatoes, sneaking into abandoned places and finding all kinds of cool things, acting like retards, and even just watching some tv. Those 2 days have just made things so much better... and now Im happier. I can see that things have changed, and Im hoping that they will stay good like this... cause losing your best friend sucks.

Im done for now, although I still have alot in my head... but that will wait for a time that I have sorted out my mental issues (lol)
Peace (:

I have alot of things that need to be put here...

..But Im going to leave that for tomorrow or sunday. All I have for right now is that I am completely happy and content for the fitst time in a while, and it feels really, really good. Yesterday and today were great, thanks guys :)
Im going to bed now, work comes fairly early.
Ciao.