It's what we're all about

I want this to be done.
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I want this to go on
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Why the fuck am I so indecisive? Why I cant I just make a decision and stick with it? I want to move forward. I want to just forget about all this. I want to pretend that everythings alright. I put on a smile, but deep inside theres something missing.
I really need to take the time to figure out just *what* is missing.
Bleh. Fuck me.