Thursday, May 31, 2012

In the dark I see

The night before last I had a really fucked up dream... I don't know what it means, and it really freaked me out. It was painful.
I dreamt that there was a memorial-type service at glen falls school for Matt, and that a bunch of us friends were all sitting together to support each other. But then in the crowd I spotted Matt, and we all started freaking out.. he started running because he knew that we had seen him... then after chasing him all over the school we finally caught up to him... he explained that he faked his death and that he wanted to get away from everything, but it had nothing to do with us.
and that's it.
That's when I woke up. It might not seem like such a bad dream, but when you wake up thinking that your friend was still alive and here, only to realize that the dream wasn't real, it's heart wrenching... Realizing that he's still gone.
It felt like losing him all over again.

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