This is me. (not finished)

Ok, so here goes how I see myself, everything that I can think of right now anyway.
I love and value my family and friends above all, because they are always standing right by my side no matter what. I am an overall decent person, and I know that I have my moments where I am a condescending asshole, and I know that no matter how much I hate it I know that I need a reality check every now and then. I'm neurotic, cynical, and bitter, but I love my life, and I love to laugh and be happy. I can be very opinionated and biased, and I hate being wrong, but will admit when I am. I am very stubborn and can be very hot headed, but I am pretty easy going overall; I give people respect and treat them accordingly to how they treat me. I've lived in the city my whole life, but I am a country boy at heart. I love almost everything about country living, and someday I see myself getting out of the city. I am afraid of spiders, losing people, death, and change. I make mistakes everyday. I don't believe in regrets, because everything happens for a reason, and there is always a lesson to learn. I'm stupid, but I am full of useless information. Helping people is definitely something that I love to do, and hope to do so in some sort of career. I love the quiet and hate it all at once, It's relaxing but too boring. Music is a big part of my life, almost every song that I like as some sort of memory or emotion tied to is. I am a very sentimental person, and I love to keep random things that hold memories. I am a caring person, and caring too much is one of my many flaws. I am also very egocentric, shallow, forgetful... the list goes on and on. I always seem to see the worst in everything, while at the same time trying to find the best in everyone. I have a tendency to always see everything in the worst light, and dwell on the decisions I have made. I worry about everything imaginable, and I am always analyzing what people say to me. I focus on body language and facial expression. I hate my physical appearance, very much. I am very shy and self conscious, and I hate being the center of attention. I really believe that the best way to release my anger or frustrations are talking it out, walking/running, writing, and good ol fashioned crying it out. Everyone needs a good cry now and then. I rarely love early mornings, and I love late night. I love my job sometimes because it can be rewarding, but sometimes I absolutely hate it. I'm not afraid of hard work, but at the same time I can be lazy. I'm very proud of where I came from and how I was raised. I haven't had the easiest life, but I know that I am very fortunate to have taken what I have from life so far. I love to travel, and will someday travel again. I'm very skeptical and indecisive. I hate making decisions, and I hate being dependent. I'm very afraid of letting people into my life, because I am afraid of someone having something to hold against me.I have a hard time letting go of things, except for grudges. Life's too short for holding grudges and not forgiving. Always forgive, but never forget. I strongly believe that the past is in the past, and that people can change but it's not always the case. I believe that love exists, and that it's not all that hard to find. I don't believe in love at first sight, it's called lust, love takes time to develop.