I'm having a hard time dealing with all of this. I still can't seem to get my mind wrapped around it.
Death is something that I have never been able to properly deal with... not 9 years ago when we lost my great grandmother, not 6 years ago when we lost my great aunt, not 5 years ago when we lost my great uncle, not 15 days ago when we lost a good friend, and not now.
I don't understand it... Is it that I;m never going to see the person again? That I regret not spending more time than I did with them? That I am afraid of forgetting them? That I'm afraid of moving on?
I don't know what it is, but I wish that I knew how to properly deal with this... Still debating in my head whether or not to goo see a guidance counsellor, but it keeps sounding like a better idea everyday.