Dont think I dont think about it.

Excuse the following, im just not happy.



I dont know what is wrong with me, and its driving me mad. My apetite is fucked up, I keep feeling sick, I feel guilty for things that I know that I shouldnt, I havent really slept a whole night without waking up in over a month. I feel like Im not trying hard enough, like im not doing enough. Im just generally unhappy. Before this week, I tried to put on a happy face, so that noone would worry about me. I just gave up, because it was making me feel worse.



Guilt and overthough seem to rule my being right now. I just keep replaying the same thoughts in my head, over and over and over and over. Its gotten to the point where I just dont want to deal with it. I know that Im going to have to, and that this isnt just something thats going to go away... But I dont even fully understand the problem. Theres bits and pieces, but they never see, to fit, or even add up.



Stop listening to everything so skeptically. Stop taking everything that everyone says so literally. Think about the good that going to come. Everything will be ok. Have trust and faith. Dont let yourself get caught up in business thats not yours. Let go.

I better get to sleep. Work comes early.