Misery loves it's company

There is a problem here, with our society.
The absence of my tears is my sobriety.
I have a growing fear and you're not helping me.
Am I the only one who realizes it's true?

This verse just seems to describe how I feel at this point in time. Im feeling paranoid, scared, and guilty. ... There's only one person who will completely understand where Im going with this, but I feel the need to let it out.

I dont know why I think about it, because I have no reason to. I dont know why I just cant convince myself that everything will be ok, than nothing bad is going to happen. Nothing bad is going to happen, and everything WILL be ok. I just cant seem to shake the thought from my mind. I felt better after explaining what I feel on monday, but then today it fucking came back. I dont even think that the actual thought is whats bothering me the most, but the fact that Im even THINKING it to begin with and its frustrating as hell. I just need to keep trying to reassure myself that its nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing. It really is nothing, and it really is driving me insane.

Anyway, its 1 am, and I should probably get SOME sleep, and then maybe I will be able to concentrate long enough to decypher my homework in the morning.

Let your light shine through me.
Take this hate I can't release.
Help me make the blind see.
Misery loves its company...


G'night.