"When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead..."

Im actualy generally happy right now. Aside from the runny nose, painfull cough, and the stressing over europe and school. I hate, HATEHATEHATE being sick, because I feel like shit, lose all motovation to do anything, and it just plain SUCKS. I JUST WANT TO GET BETTER!!

Right now I cant stop listening to If Today Was Your Last Day, its just making so much sence to me right now. The lyrics are just speaking to me, and its making me feel more optomistic about almost everything. Im glad to be finally feeling better, for the most part.. Although there are points throughout the day where I still just want to crash and stop caring, everything is slowly getting put back to normal, the pieces are being put back into place, one by one. Im just praying that something like the mere wind wont make everything come tumbling down.. again.

I cant believe that in less than two days Ill be flying over the Atlantic, on my way to Europe. Im so excited, but at the same time, Im a little frustrated and down. I really am happy to be getting away from here for a while, but I am not looking forward to leaving behind the people that Im used to talking to every day. I dont know how Ill survive with out them, But I will.

Homework, I just can bring myself to do it tonight. I would rather still be out, basically anywhere but here. I dont know. Maybe if I was feeling better, I might atleast make an attempt. No, its not going oto happen. instead Im going to go to bed, and hiope to feel better by morning. Like thats going to happen.

"...You can look beside you, and your best friend will be there"

Thanks again for the help, with everything. Im here for you, whenever you need.