Time, where have you gone.

Im at a loss of reason to do things. I feel like the more I try to do, the worse things get. Its driving me crazy, not knowing what i should do or say. Do I go with my gut instinct, or do I go with what i know is the right thing to do, or do I just let things be. This is getting tough. I just want things to be normal... But I know that they cant. Talk. Words come out, things are voiced, but nothing seems to be heard anymore.

Hurt. I dont like to see people that I care greatly about being hurt, but it seems to happen more and more often. I try to help, but it just seems like that its making things worse, not helping at all. I try, and I really do to make things better, to ease the pain, to sheild, but it only seems worse thereafter. I dont know. I cant stand to see people that matter to me being hurt by anything.. it really bothers me. Maybe thats why I get so moody when i think too much about this... about my part in this. In some weird way, I think that this is partly my fault...

Anyway, Im sorry if i have hurt you, done anything to, or said anything to do so. I do feel a little better about some things though, and Im really glad that I was told what I was a few nights ago... made me really happy, and made me feel like less of an asshole.

oh well, Im done for now...