Im beginning to realize just how much of a negative person I can be. Almost all the time my problems begin from my mind turning everything into bad. If Im not with people, sometimes even when they're around, I only think about the bad things that come from things. Like right now, the people that I wanna be around right now are busy or working. Im thinking about how lonley I am and how bored I am going to be... When I should be thinking theres all kinds of people on line to talk to, theres over 30 movies here for me to watch, I can go for a nice relaxing walk, theres things I need to do, Applications I need to fill out... But I tend to not. It sucks. If anyone knows of a method that will help me with this problem, I would greatfully appreciate you letting me in on it. Please?

Another problem that I need to deal with is the past. I need to stop dwelling over the choices that Ive made, Things Ive said, and whats happened. "What If" seems ro cross my mind more and more often, and I know that I really do not want to know. I just dont. I must have said and done something right, because I am living a pretty good life right now. I have people to love and people that love me. I have a family that loves me and stands behind the choices I make, whatever they be. Friends that back me up and are there for me. And I couldnt ask for any greater. I need to realize that the past IN THE PAST, and thats where its going to stay. The future is ahead of me, and thats where I need to keep focused, however scarry it may be.

On another note, I want to thank you (you know who you are) for letting me in, and letting me help you. It makes me feel better, because you have helped me beyond anything I could do for you. So... Thank you.