The way that I've felt in the past few months has been really weird. Its hard to describe... sort of like a feeling of guilt, mixed dread and fear. I still have yet to figure out why, but I think that I may have some ideas. I keep letting my mind wander to where my life is headed. I keeping playing scenarios over and over in my mind, waiting for the right one... And it seems that almost every day that graduation looms closer, I think more and more about what everyone is going to be doing, and how everyone is taking their seperate paths. I just want to find a path that involves the people who Im closest to. I never want to let them go. I know that this sounds a little weird, but I just dont want to be left alone; and it doesnt help that its one of my biggest fears.
Im so sick of sitting here almost every day, wasting my life on facebook, waiting for replies to stupid text messages. Why does it matter. Why does any of the stupid, daly drama that we face matter at all? If anyone has an idea, PLEASE let me in.

I dont know. Im starting to feel down, and thats not how I want to finish off my birthday.
Until next time...